Snack Time

Maybe this is too transparent, or will be post that I look back on in the future and feel I went one level too deep or too personal, but the truth is that I bit off more than I could chew last semester and I struggled quite a bit. Or rather, I bit off too much without the proper dentures to get the chewing done. Hence me taking this month to get my ducks in a row so that I am prepared and ready to incorporate classes again and still have time for myself, my relationships, and this blog – on top of the other responsibilities on my plate.

I kept feeling so overwhelmed that I never knew where to start and all I could think about doing was taking a nap. Under the coffee table. I hate feeling self-pitying – I try and never lose sight of the fact that there are many out there with a far worse situation than what I am in, but sometimes one just enters a spiral and you end up leaning on those you love in an unfair way to pull you back up for air.

Anyway, to try and combat having a constant defeated feeling, I started, and it may sound cheesy, but writing down three things I am grateful for and the list of things I accomplished that day. Too often I was going to bed thinking about all the things I had to do or how little I actually completed, instead of being positive and focusing on the successful things about the day. So now, the last thing I do before I hit the hay is pull out my journal and pour out some good ol’, glass-half-full, yay-I-did-it kinda stuff.

So far it has helped and for sure one of the things that I am going to be writing down today is how grateful I am that my current job allows me to have three day weekends every other week. Today is one of my days off and I have been having such a nice me-day. Part of this lovely me-day has included two of my very favorite snacks —

Apples with almond butter: Not much too this, I cut up my apple, squeeze a little lemon juice, and dip into some almond butter. The end.

Apples and Almond Butter

Avocado and fried egg: Avocado, some fresh lime juice, cilantro, garlic salt, fried egg, salt and pepper, all topped with a little Siracha.

Avocado with Fried Egg

 

I hope you, too get a good me-day soon. Warm hug-filled thoughts go out to all of you – thank you for reading and having this short story of mine be heard.

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Miscellaneous Things I Wish I Owned, Volume Two

I spent a couple of days this week in downtown LA, which is a bit out of the ordinary for me, considering us South Bay-folk like to stay in our little bubble. While it was a wonderful experience with a few great friends, I left the city feeling young and re-inspired, yet super old and mundane at the same time. Needless to say, I ended up having a mild mental breakdown upon return to normal daily life, full of “who am I?”s, “what am I doing with my life,” or “how did I get HERE and where am I heading towards?” I don’t think I was able to fully answer any of those questions, after hours of self-pity-partying, but today I finally woke up remembering I don’t need to know or even ever fully figure out the solutions to these life problems. Sure it is great to have a plan and sense of direction, but I won’t get that time back that I spent feeling sorry for myself and overwhelmed. Maybe it is because I am turning 25 this year and it feels like this weird milestone that as kids we only looked to thinking “I wonder what awesome things I will be doing at age 25?,” and I am just not being honest enough with myself over what great things I have ACTUALLY already accomplished and what even more incredible things lie in my future. I am certainly a horrible pessimist most of the time, entirely cynical and self-deprecating, but every once in a while the positive and extremely motivated personality of my husband rubs off on me, bringing light to those gloomy days where I am simply giving in far too much to my negative thoughts. Maybe I am bipolar (probably shouldn’t joke about this sort of thing..) but just yesterday I was feeling terrible/depressed/confused, and suddenly today it clicked and I am feeling loved/grateful/hopeful. I know I am not the first to experience downer days like this, and I know it wont be my last, but I hope that if you ever have a few moments or thoughts of this variety, you do have someone wonderful in your life, like my husband, to help you power through it. And if not, I just want to extend the offer, for now and for always, that you can reach out to me and we can be sad little monkeys together and hopefully get past these sort of unmotivated and defeating moments.

I am not sure what any of this has to do with today’s post – nothing really, so how about we switch gears and put on those materialistic-hats, shall we? Here are five things that are super pretty and I want them. I want them and then I will Vine my doggie on or around or above or below them. And you will be very happy because you have yet another super adorable dog video for your viewing pleasure. Win-win-Jenny-win.

4 misc

1. Suck UK, Cloud Key Holder via Emmo home

2. West Elm, White Enamel Teapot

3. Mr. Perswall, White Marble Wall Paper

4. Urban Outfitters, Gold Gumball Desk Lamp

Miscellaneous Things I Wished I Owned, Volume 1

Am I the only one who would like to hit the reset button on 2013?

January 1 came this year and with it was a sourpuss attitude and zero motivation. Then depression set in. Why was I not being like the rest of the world and resolving to make some changes? Where was that new year energy and confidence that I was going to kick 2013’s tail-feather? Not sure. So far in January I have just felt defeated. It hasn’t helped that my life has just been totally crazy. Lots of changes, random/unexpected/unexciting busy-ness, and lots of stress. So earlier this week I started trying to take a step back. Figure my shiz out. I decided to let myself be excused of January. I know this is exactly what one isn’t supposed to do with the new year, but it’s what is happening. I am going to use the next two weeks to plan out my 2013 and celebrate my own fake new year February 1.

So what does that mean for the blog? Well, I don’t know all the details yet. I do know that I want 2013 to be the ‘Year of the Blog,’ make a logo, redo the website, all that badass-ness, but in the immediate future I am just going to be taking baby steps. First baby step – develop a reoccurring posting theme. Now this isn’t incredibly unique, of course, but I figured why not take advantage of the lists I am making daily.. meaning the lists of things I want to buy with all my imaginary lotto money..

Welcome to this weeks post. A few things for my home, something for my person, and even something for my doggie.

1.18.13 post

Olive – Go! Pet Design Field Tent: 

Sadly Jenny wouldn’t fit in this, but my goodness it is cute. Maybe, if/when we get another dog/cat/stuffed chicken, if it’s a small enough dog/cat/stuffed chicken we might/probably won’t get this (but I will wish we had.)

You He She – Gylda Jewellery:

This Danish site has a lot of really nice pieces. I don’t own a ton of jewelry, mostly because my money has found other priorities, but I still like to look and plan to maybe one day buy.

Present & Correct – Cut Out Number Calendar 2013:

Since I am giving myself a pass on January, that means I still have a couple weeks to finally get a calendar, right? Well, there are about a thousand beautiful ones that I can’t seem to decide between. Yesterday I was really loving something different, tomorrow it will be another polar opposite option, but today, this is my favorite.

All Organic Textiles Etsy Store – Handwoven Turkish Bath Towel:

I have been really thinking about replacing our boring bath towels over the last few months. These pretty little coffee colored numbers are certainly top contenders.

Torre & Tagus (Amazon) – Retro Flip Clock:

Don’t buy this clock. I was on the fence on including this at all, because it has horrible Amazon reviews, but I just love how it looks! So I am simply  filing it away as a style of bedside clock I want to keep an eye out for. You would think there would be a ton of these, but I haven’t found much that is similar. I want the look, but with five stars. If anyone knows where I can get something like this, stop keeping it a secret and let me know. 

 

In other exciting news, Alex said today that he has been thinking of “maybe starting a blog.” This of course could mean nothing, or it could mean that we could be totally cute blogging nerds together. Naturally his blog would be nothing like this one and have zero of the same readership, but I am still pretty excited about the possibilities. Keep your fingers, legs, and t’s crossed.

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